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nuagedeauA walk down memory lane (7/11)
jaemin (a little minsu in this chapter)
PG
angst, fluff
1698 words (total: 9737)
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sharkbait_ha and liang_xing_xing, who both corrected my mistakes. &hearts
Memory is a tricky thing. Love is too.
parts 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11.
Too close for comfort
"Laughter is the closest distance between two people."
~Victor Borge
It had taken an hour or two to finish the album and books. And still, you didn't remember -- not even a detail. You felt sad seeing Junsu's forced smile as you shook your head. His expression turned into concern when he saw your pained frown.
"You aren't feeling guilty, are you?"
You lowered your head and closed your eyes.
"You are! Min! Look at me," he raised your face towards him but you still had your eyes tightly shut, "Changmin."
You didn't see the scowl on his face but could certainly feel his fingers pinch your nose, startling you into opening your eyes and mouth. Junsu smirked.
"I sooo win."
You couldn't find a suitable retort so you opted for sticking your tongue out. Junsu answered you by poking you in the ribs and soon a tickling war began. You were out of breath and Junsu was obviously winning because he knew all your weak spots. When you found your back to the floor, with him straddling your hips and pinning your arms, you surrendered.
"You," a tickle in your left side made you gasp, "win."
Junsu paused for an instant, his smirk widening.
"I am not sure. Did you say something."
"You win, okay?"
It came out a bit irritated and Junsu didn't let the occasion of teasing you pass. You had counted on him releasing your wrists to make a sneaky attack -- nothing is dirty in a tickle fight after all -- but he didn't even loosen one bit.
"You finally laughed."
You blinked. And Junsu let himself fall on you, snuggling his face on the crook of your neck. His hands left your wrists and came to rest next to your chest on the floor. You hesitated for a few seconds and awkwardly put your hands on his back.
Thinking about it, you were too tired for revenge. You stayed like that for a few minutes, your breathing synchronized and you found yourself not thinking about anything but the comforting warmth. Then Junsu whispered in your ear and you had to start thinking again.
"I miss you."
But before you could come up with a reply, the noise of the front door closing replaced Junsu's voice. The warmth was gone and Junsu helped you stand and soon you were leaning on your crutches, shivering. Without a word, you went in the direction of the living room and Junsu followed. You were welcomed by Yoochun's wink and upturned thumb. You could only see the top of a head going past the top of the couch and Yunho standing, facing you.
"You are back?" said Junsu, hinting at his wish for an explanation. Yoochun shrugged, ignoring the unsaid questions.
Jaejoong stood up and when you met his gaze, you were startled by his red and slightly puffy eyes. He quickly turned his eyes away and you followed his gaze to a picture of the five of us, happily smiling.
The guilt came back stronger than ever and you bit your lower lip. The hand that took yours and squeezed it made you stop and you smiled a little seeing the disapproving look from Junsu. Yunho cleared his throat to have the attention of everyone. You entwined your fingers with Junsu's while Yunho began to speak.
"After eating, we have to go do the press conference."
You tensed and Junsu caressed your hand with his thumb. You caught Jaejoong strangely staring at your hands and something in his eyes made you let go of Junsu. At his questioning look, you responded you were fine now, thanks.
"What are we going to say?" asked Yoochun, having followed the strange exchange.
"The truth," responded Yunho, "Changmin's accident, his broken leg and his lost memories. Though on the contrary of the media, we are going to be positive with the future."
"Mm. Will I have to speak, hyung?"
Yunho smiled, "No. If you don't want to, it's okay if you don't. Don't worry."
You ate take-out in the car with the manager and too soon you arrived at press conference. It all passed in a blur, people staring, the flash of the cameras blinding and you could only half listen to the questions and responses. You still had difficulty to believe you were a... celebrity.
A last question, a bow and a couple of polite smiles and you were once again in the car, going home. You let out a small sigh that made Jaejoong look at you. You were sitting in the back, between Junsu and Jaejoong. Yoochun had nearly forced a reticent Jaejoong to sit beside you and it made your heart squeeze painfully in your chest. You couldn't put a name on what you felt so you concentrated on the fact Jaejoong obviously had a problem with you. Did he dislike you? It made you annoyed, though you didn't know if it was your lack of memories or Jaejoong's behaviour that caused it. So you decided to ignore him; it was easier and you had Junsu anyway.
"It went well, didn't it?" you heard Yunho say but you were kind of sleepy -- the day had been long -- and you closed you eyes and leaned your head on Junsu's shoulder, distantly thinking it was warm.
You were woken by the car stopping and doors opening but didn't open your eyes immediately. Your eyelids were somehow too heavy. Then Junsu spoke and you felt the vibrations against your head.
"Should we wake him up?"
"He looks so tired."
That had been Yoochun and you heard a door being closed.
"True, we sho-," began Junsu but the sounds of quick footsteps going away interrupted him, "Jaejoong! Where are you going?"
"Up," came the distant reply. Someone sighed but you couldn't tell who and Junsu muttered a bit on how Jaejoong was acting strange and why was he anyway?
"I will carry him on my back then," said Yunho. You wanted to protest but everything felt so heavy so you let Junsu and Yoochun maneuver you onto Yunho's back. You must have blacked out for a bit after that because when you woke up again you found yourself staring at a white ceiling. You laid for a while, trying to imagine your life before the accident, trying to figure why Jaejoong acted cold towards you. The others found it was strange so surely Jaejoong wasn't like that with you before. And Yoochun was acting as if he was hiding something.
"Arg," you turned on your stomach and buried your head in the pillow. Why was your life so complicated? You had passed from a normal student to an amnesic celebrity. You sighed and tried to control your growing panic. Breath in, breath out. Junsu was nice and you felt comfortable around him. Breath in, breath out. He was like a brother you never had. Breath in, breath out. You smiled at this thought, finally relaxing, and turned your head to the left, facing the wall. You didn't want to suffocate after all.
You didn't hear the door opening but you felt the bed dip and a hand resting on your back. There was a few minutes of silence and you had closed your eyes. The hand was now softly caressing your hair and the person bent closer to your face, placing a kiss on your lips. You didn't know how to react, your thoughts racing -- wasn't that your first kiss, perhaps not, and who was it anyway and why... -- so you didn't do anything.
The kiss had been a short one but the other's face was still hovering above yours. The person sighed and let his face rest on yours, cheek against cheek. Again, there was a few minutes -- but to you it felt like eternity -- of nothingness beside the warmth against you and somehow your heart was beating faster and faster in your chest. You hoped it went unnoticed and surely it did because the person finally spoke.
"If only you knew how much I miss you. I wish you-," he took a deep breath, "I wish you would come back to me. I don't know what to do, how to act around you and... ah," a chocked sob, "will you ever remember? My little Min," a bitter chuckle, "well, not so little."
He became quiet and you felt his tears running down on your cheek to finish their race down your throat. Your mind refused to work, to put the pieces together and you could only think about the softness of the kiss, the wetness of the tears and the broken yet beautiful whispers.
The warmth slowly went away and a hand slowly wiped the tears away, tracing your face with the tips of his fingers. He bent down again to kiss your forehead.
"Sleep well."
And he was gone. You shuddered, tears suddenly in your eyes, chest heavy. Jaejoong. Jaejoong, he... loved you? That was why? Come back to him? It felt like you were in a relationship. Did you... love him too? You felt dizzy and cold and sorry at the same time. You sat up and looked for your crutches. When you found them, just beside your bed, you stood up and went to the front door to put your shoes on. The shoelaces felt surreal in your hands and you just wanted to go away.
"Changmin! You're awake! What are you doing?"
You stood up and you turned to look at Junsu but your eyes didn't want to focus on anything and you mumbled something about needing a walk. You were out before he could respond and he was surely going to follow you but you didn't really care.
It was raining outside and you hadn't taken your jacket but you didn't care either. Away, away, that's where you wanted to go. Everything felt dreamlike, the raindrops running down your back in your shirt, the sounds of cars splashing water and someone calling your name.
Author notes: More than a month. Mm. You can kill me. ^^; The good point is that the plot is finally going somewhere! Woot! There was a little MinSu but I really think they have this kind of fluffy platonic relationship. Aww~ Cute. And Jaejoong... has finally decided to help me bring the plot forward. I like to write listening to Timeless, perhaps it would be good to read it listening to it? (I am so random...)
Thanks for reading. ^^
jaemin (a little minsu in this chapter)
PG
angst, fluff
1698 words (total: 9737)
thanks to
sharkbait_ha and liang_xing_xing, who both corrected my mistakes. &heartsMemory is a tricky thing. Love is too.
parts 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11.
Too close for comfort
"Laughter is the closest distance between two people."
~Victor Borge
It had taken an hour or two to finish the album and books. And still, you didn't remember -- not even a detail. You felt sad seeing Junsu's forced smile as you shook your head. His expression turned into concern when he saw your pained frown.
"You aren't feeling guilty, are you?"
You lowered your head and closed your eyes.
"You are! Min! Look at me," he raised your face towards him but you still had your eyes tightly shut, "Changmin."
You didn't see the scowl on his face but could certainly feel his fingers pinch your nose, startling you into opening your eyes and mouth. Junsu smirked.
"I sooo win."
You couldn't find a suitable retort so you opted for sticking your tongue out. Junsu answered you by poking you in the ribs and soon a tickling war began. You were out of breath and Junsu was obviously winning because he knew all your weak spots. When you found your back to the floor, with him straddling your hips and pinning your arms, you surrendered.
"You," a tickle in your left side made you gasp, "win."
Junsu paused for an instant, his smirk widening.
"I am not sure. Did you say something."
"You win, okay?"
It came out a bit irritated and Junsu didn't let the occasion of teasing you pass. You had counted on him releasing your wrists to make a sneaky attack -- nothing is dirty in a tickle fight after all -- but he didn't even loosen one bit.
"You finally laughed."
You blinked. And Junsu let himself fall on you, snuggling his face on the crook of your neck. His hands left your wrists and came to rest next to your chest on the floor. You hesitated for a few seconds and awkwardly put your hands on his back.
Thinking about it, you were too tired for revenge. You stayed like that for a few minutes, your breathing synchronized and you found yourself not thinking about anything but the comforting warmth. Then Junsu whispered in your ear and you had to start thinking again.
"I miss you."
But before you could come up with a reply, the noise of the front door closing replaced Junsu's voice. The warmth was gone and Junsu helped you stand and soon you were leaning on your crutches, shivering. Without a word, you went in the direction of the living room and Junsu followed. You were welcomed by Yoochun's wink and upturned thumb. You could only see the top of a head going past the top of the couch and Yunho standing, facing you.
"You are back?" said Junsu, hinting at his wish for an explanation. Yoochun shrugged, ignoring the unsaid questions.
Jaejoong stood up and when you met his gaze, you were startled by his red and slightly puffy eyes. He quickly turned his eyes away and you followed his gaze to a picture of the five of us, happily smiling.
The guilt came back stronger than ever and you bit your lower lip. The hand that took yours and squeezed it made you stop and you smiled a little seeing the disapproving look from Junsu. Yunho cleared his throat to have the attention of everyone. You entwined your fingers with Junsu's while Yunho began to speak.
"After eating, we have to go do the press conference."
You tensed and Junsu caressed your hand with his thumb. You caught Jaejoong strangely staring at your hands and something in his eyes made you let go of Junsu. At his questioning look, you responded you were fine now, thanks.
"What are we going to say?" asked Yoochun, having followed the strange exchange.
"The truth," responded Yunho, "Changmin's accident, his broken leg and his lost memories. Though on the contrary of the media, we are going to be positive with the future."
"Mm. Will I have to speak, hyung?"
Yunho smiled, "No. If you don't want to, it's okay if you don't. Don't worry."
You ate take-out in the car with the manager and too soon you arrived at press conference. It all passed in a blur, people staring, the flash of the cameras blinding and you could only half listen to the questions and responses. You still had difficulty to believe you were a... celebrity.
A last question, a bow and a couple of polite smiles and you were once again in the car, going home. You let out a small sigh that made Jaejoong look at you. You were sitting in the back, between Junsu and Jaejoong. Yoochun had nearly forced a reticent Jaejoong to sit beside you and it made your heart squeeze painfully in your chest. You couldn't put a name on what you felt so you concentrated on the fact Jaejoong obviously had a problem with you. Did he dislike you? It made you annoyed, though you didn't know if it was your lack of memories or Jaejoong's behaviour that caused it. So you decided to ignore him; it was easier and you had Junsu anyway.
"It went well, didn't it?" you heard Yunho say but you were kind of sleepy -- the day had been long -- and you closed you eyes and leaned your head on Junsu's shoulder, distantly thinking it was warm.
You were woken by the car stopping and doors opening but didn't open your eyes immediately. Your eyelids were somehow too heavy. Then Junsu spoke and you felt the vibrations against your head.
"Should we wake him up?"
"He looks so tired."
That had been Yoochun and you heard a door being closed.
"True, we sho-," began Junsu but the sounds of quick footsteps going away interrupted him, "Jaejoong! Where are you going?"
"Up," came the distant reply. Someone sighed but you couldn't tell who and Junsu muttered a bit on how Jaejoong was acting strange and why was he anyway?
"I will carry him on my back then," said Yunho. You wanted to protest but everything felt so heavy so you let Junsu and Yoochun maneuver you onto Yunho's back. You must have blacked out for a bit after that because when you woke up again you found yourself staring at a white ceiling. You laid for a while, trying to imagine your life before the accident, trying to figure why Jaejoong acted cold towards you. The others found it was strange so surely Jaejoong wasn't like that with you before. And Yoochun was acting as if he was hiding something.
"Arg," you turned on your stomach and buried your head in the pillow. Why was your life so complicated? You had passed from a normal student to an amnesic celebrity. You sighed and tried to control your growing panic. Breath in, breath out. Junsu was nice and you felt comfortable around him. Breath in, breath out. He was like a brother you never had. Breath in, breath out. You smiled at this thought, finally relaxing, and turned your head to the left, facing the wall. You didn't want to suffocate after all.
You didn't hear the door opening but you felt the bed dip and a hand resting on your back. There was a few minutes of silence and you had closed your eyes. The hand was now softly caressing your hair and the person bent closer to your face, placing a kiss on your lips. You didn't know how to react, your thoughts racing -- wasn't that your first kiss, perhaps not, and who was it anyway and why... -- so you didn't do anything.
The kiss had been a short one but the other's face was still hovering above yours. The person sighed and let his face rest on yours, cheek against cheek. Again, there was a few minutes -- but to you it felt like eternity -- of nothingness beside the warmth against you and somehow your heart was beating faster and faster in your chest. You hoped it went unnoticed and surely it did because the person finally spoke.
"If only you knew how much I miss you. I wish you-," he took a deep breath, "I wish you would come back to me. I don't know what to do, how to act around you and... ah," a chocked sob, "will you ever remember? My little Min," a bitter chuckle, "well, not so little."
He became quiet and you felt his tears running down on your cheek to finish their race down your throat. Your mind refused to work, to put the pieces together and you could only think about the softness of the kiss, the wetness of the tears and the broken yet beautiful whispers.
The warmth slowly went away and a hand slowly wiped the tears away, tracing your face with the tips of his fingers. He bent down again to kiss your forehead.
"Sleep well."
And he was gone. You shuddered, tears suddenly in your eyes, chest heavy. Jaejoong. Jaejoong, he... loved you? That was why? Come back to him? It felt like you were in a relationship. Did you... love him too? You felt dizzy and cold and sorry at the same time. You sat up and looked for your crutches. When you found them, just beside your bed, you stood up and went to the front door to put your shoes on. The shoelaces felt surreal in your hands and you just wanted to go away.
"Changmin! You're awake! What are you doing?"
You stood up and you turned to look at Junsu but your eyes didn't want to focus on anything and you mumbled something about needing a walk. You were out before he could respond and he was surely going to follow you but you didn't really care.
It was raining outside and you hadn't taken your jacket but you didn't care either. Away, away, that's where you wanted to go. Everything felt dreamlike, the raindrops running down your back in your shirt, the sounds of cars splashing water and someone calling your name.
Author notes: More than a month. Mm. You can kill me. ^^; The good point is that the plot is finally going somewhere! Woot! There was a little MinSu but I really think they have this kind of fluffy platonic relationship. Aww~ Cute. And Jaejoong... has finally decided to help me bring the plot forward. I like to write listening to Timeless, perhaps it would be good to read it listening to it? (I am so random...)
Thanks for reading. ^^
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Date: 2007-07-31 08:30 pm (UTC)it seems that pretending to be asleep is an asy way to find out some things haha
and Changmin!! get back in the house!!, the last thing that you need is a to catch a cold!, srsly... but if you do, Jae will take goo care of you :3!!!
and no, woman, we can't kill you, who's going to update this if we do? DD:!!
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Date: 2007-07-31 08:35 pm (UTC)It is. :D (Thought it wasn't planned at all. o_O Jae isn't sooo random with me...)
I didn't plan on him catching a cold (but now... ^w^).
True, true. But I am annoyed at my own "slowness". I want to finish it. ;_;
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Date: 2007-07-31 10:06 pm (UTC)DD:!!! i didn't give you an idea did i? T_T!!, can jae at least feed min?? xD as in "here comes the airplane" way?? hahahahahaha lololol
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Date: 2007-07-31 10:13 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2007-07-31 08:37 pm (UTC)You're quite good at getting your writing across, and I can feel the emotions in this story! Thank you for sharing this with us ^^
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Date: 2007-07-31 08:40 pm (UTC)You're welcome. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment. ^^
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Date: 2007-07-31 10:15 pm (UTC)XD
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Date: 2007-07-31 10:45 pm (UTC)Thank you so much. So when will you update? I'm looking forward to it. This chapter made my day.
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Date: 2007-08-01 11:59 am (UTC)You're welcome. Thanks for commenting. ^^ I haven't written the next chapter but I will try it to be soon. ^^;
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Date: 2007-08-01 05:59 am (UTC)MINHO YES PLEASE?
xD
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Date: 2007-08-01 12:00 pm (UTC)Now I just need an idea. ^^;
(Did you see all the MinHo in FITB? Did you? They are sooo cute. >_<)
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Date: 2007-08-01 05:16 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2007-08-02 02:01 am (UTC)The MinSu scene is pretty good! ;__;U Junsu is so cute! But the Jaemin is... THE BEST! Really, I like it very much!
n__n I can't wait for more!
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Date: 2007-08-02 03:43 pm (UTC)Thank you very much! &hearts
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Date: 2007-08-03 10:19 am (UTC)That was such a sad chapter. Poor Jaejoong. T_T I can feel his pain. And Changmin, now so confused.
The relationship between Junsu and Changmin was cute.
Overall, love love for this chapter.
I eagerly await for the next one. ^^
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Date: 2007-08-03 04:35 pm (UTC)I am a slow writer. *is shot*)The cute was there to compensate the annnngst. ;_;
Awww~ Thank you. ^^
I will do my best!
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Date: 2008-03-16 07:20 am (UTC)I'm glad that Yoochun is there for him though...
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Date: 2010-09-26 06:21 am (UTC)angsty and beautiful jaemin...me likey ^^
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